'Insight'- Sunlit Meadow painting

Title:    Insight

Size:     80cm x 120cm

Medium: Acrylic & Oil on deep profile canvas

About this painting: Insight is part of my 'A year in the meadow series',

When it takes weeks to create a painting, the secrets it tells & lessons learnt are whispered through the brushstrokes. Slowly an awareness of answers presenting themselves reveal insights which bring moments of clarity.
Over the weeks this canvas has morphed in layers which I loved, then struggled with, then got frustrated with, then flowed again.
There were moments of regret, flashes of awareness, hours of despondency, stages of pondering, nearly giving up, then giving in. All flowing in tandem with my thoughts & feelings throughout the month I struggle with every year.
The insights came centred around how just letting go & moving on from so many aspects of my current thoughts are the only way ahead. Insight gets followed by surrender & surrender leads to peace, peace transforms into a knowing smile & all is well with the world again.
The layers my mind went through are too numerous to tell but there they are buried beneath sweeps of paint & dappled light.
This afternoon I put it aside, thinking I was dissatisfied with it & decided to move on to a new idea. Maybe I’d revisit it one day… then the light changed & I started to see something in it. Sometimes looking at something in a different light is all it takes to find the answer